Sleepless in my living room

Even tho I wrote this in an email a little while back, it's still pertinent today..

I wish I could sleep tonight. Lately it seems that every time I try to sleep at night, something keeps me awake. I am SO tired, yet cannot sleep.
First, I toss and turn and then the itching starts. First, it'll be the leg, then the arm, then the foot and so on. I don't know why. It's not like I have any reason for it. My aunt told me once that it was "nerves", but what the heck do I have to be anxious about? Especially, when all I want to do is sleep. I sleep SO good for about an hour after Bobby has gone to work and Little Bobby has gone to school-usually anyway. Right now, he's on Spring Break and he's sick..so I don't really get that hour either. So, what gives? I would say that I'm just worried about him, but this happens all the time. Things have to be just perfect for me to sleep. Pillow and blankets in the right position, box fan on, but not blowing on me - I need the noise, ceiling fan can't be on bc it blows my hair and tickles my face, every light must be off and the doors shut, nothing blowing or making any noise at all in the house and I need absolute darkness. Oh and if I didn't shave -then I must wear pj bottoms or my hairy legs will annoy me-I can almost hear the chirping sound that crickets make when their legs rub together. Any noise will wake me up. Even the dog moving on the floor. A little while ago, I thought I heard the bear getting into the garbage-nope, it was just the cat on the back porch. The porch doesn't even connect to my room. Maybe I have superhuman hearing. Or. Maybe I'm just neurotic. I'm leaning towards the latter. My plan tonight, is to become so unbelievably sleepy that I fall straight into bed. Meanwhile..you get the ramblings of a neurotic -sleep deprived, but obsessed woman. A few weeks ago, I had THE BEST sleep that I can remember. Basically, I slept through the night. Like 6 hours straight. I was feeling sick and had taken night time cold medicine and it knocked me out. I awoke feeling refreshed and wonderful...I still took some the next night bc I "might" feel sick again. The third night, I didn't take any bc I wasn't feeling sick and bc I realized that I really liked taking meds to help me sleep and decided that probably wasn't the best idea. So. I no longer sleep through the night. Again. I suppose I actually have to get to sleep to be able to sleep through the night.